Another Journey in God's Grace
I am thinking of the book written by the late author Frederick Buechner, "The Longing For Home". His words have evoked reflections of my own.
I ask, "Do you have a secret place just for you?" I often take the time to find my own retreat. My place is in the middle of a field encircled by cedar trees. This is my sacred place, a place to walk, sit and pray. While sitting quietly in His presence, looking upward towards the clear blue sky, with an array of white clouds, I turn my heart to God. I was full of gratitude and awe. I had no words. The sky said what I could not. The sky reflected the light of the son. It was peaceful. Everything felt blessed, And hushed. My eyes filled, brimmed with tears.
The one who created the vast beauty I had been enjoying was the same God who had cared for me with such mercy. The beauty of His creation provided a tangible symbol for the many experiences of God's provision that graced me through the past months of cancer treatment. I found myself talking to God in the simplest of words. Rather childlike I would whimper "Thank you, thank you, thank you. Father, You always take care of me. Every time you have delivered and answered prayers. You always help me and take care of me. And You tell me in a hundred ways that You love me. Thank you. I love you."
I worship the Father and thank Him for leading giving me wisdom and knowledge and the guidance of natural healing. I learned a tremendous amount from books on natural health as well as a very special doctor. In this experience, I found out more of who I am and grew closer in my walk with The Lord. I am not a victim. In my darkest hour, this was an opportunity to grow spiritually and emotionally. It became my opportunity. I now know with certainty what it feels like to feel your health is gone, and there is nothing more important than the health and taking care of this body. I give God all the praise and glory for this beautiful gift of health.
May God grant to you the capacity to trust the most fundamental of all truths: you are loved. Always, Unconditionally.
When you don't know what to do ...know that you are loved by your Heavenly Father
Psalms 13:5 I trust in your unfailing love.
